Who's That Girl?

Have you ever had a moment where you did something you normally wouldn’t do?  Tried something you never would have tried? Really pushed yourself out of your usual comfort zone.  I’ve always done things by the book, followed the rules, took the safest route and honestly, I’ve never really challenged myself when it came to certain things out of sheer fear and maybe a little stubbornness.  Fear of failure or embarrassment because who wants to feel those types of feelings?  Stubbornness because “it’s just how it’s supposed to be” so why rock the boat or challenge the status quo? 

Well, I’ve turned a new leaf.  I’m slowly shedding my old skin and am finally taking some leaps of faith and trying different things. Who is this girl, for real? She’s raw, fun, she’s pushing the limits and stepping out of a comfort zone that she’s been in her entire life and even sharing it with all of you as you read along.  With all her nerves, a little self-doubt and despite her flaws but all being done with plenty of hope, lots of big dreams and a heart as big as her hips (I can’t take credit for that one as I saw it somewhere and thought – that’s totally me!).  I’m slowly letting go of my fears, my insecurities, speaking up and even in front of groups and am just living my life.  Trying new things, looking at things with eyes wide open and with a smile – just eager to learn and experience what’s next. You only live once so why not take chances and just be, am I right?

I am proud of myself for just feeling anything new and positive at this particular moment in time.  I have moments where I feel guilty for feeling anything other than sadness, because how can I feel good about anything after such a significant loss? Although I don’t think, no, I know he wouldn’t want me to sit in sadness while my life passed me by.  He would want me to laugh, he would want me to push forward and to be brave. I am realizing more and more how important it is to just enjoy life and to live it to the fullest, especially in honour of those that don’t have that same opportunity.  To not be so serious all the time and to just feel and live without judgement and all the negative self-talk. What a liberating feeling!  That is how life should be lived.  It is a beautiful blessing to have another day on this planet and how lucky are we to have this chance and to have these incredible moments. That is something I never want to take for granted, forget or lose.  May I always be this confident, free spirited and maybe even a little wild while on this path and may any other woman on her journey of self-discovery find her inner fire too.  Be free ladies, be fun, take risks, try that thing you’ve been telling yourself you can’t try for whatever reason and be the YOU, you are meant to be.

LM