Who's That Girl?

Have you ever carried something for a long period of time?  Carried the weight of the world, carried a grudge, carried a secret or even just carried some feelings from unresolved issues whether past or present?  Well, I’m pretty sure everyone has felt that at some point in their lives and for many different reasons, as did I.  From carrying the weight of the world through some tough times to carrying the hurt and sadness over our loss it’s been a lot and it has taken a toll on me over the years, days and months but at some point, something had to change.

I had another epiphany recently and when I acknowledged it, reflected on it and finally allowed myself to let things go I finally feel able to open my heart and mind again and it is as if a weight has lifted off my shoulders. It is amazing how freeing that can be and how you can start to see things in a different light and even clearly again. I think this is all also part of the grieving process where you finally let it all go and just finally give yourself the permission and courage to just be free from that part of your story. Every day I am making decisions and taking steps maybe even leaps towards my new life and little by little that little ray of sunshine has been coming back in, and I am feeling good again. Every day I push through the fear, insecurities and challenges and just take in the happiness, joy and love coming my way. It can be scary, but it can be inspiring too.

I recently saw a beautiful update – a friend who lost his wife, a very dear friend of mine, way too early. He started a new life now and I am so happy for him.  To see that life can move forward and that your heart and even love can happen again was uplifting.  To be free from that label of being a widower/widow and to just be you again.  The most important thing I took from that is that it is ok for that to happen.  We chat briefly and he assured me that although it is hard at times that it is such a blessing and that it is ok.  Here was this person that went through something so similar, but he and his children were good and here he was assuring me that the same will be for us.  What a gift. 

As I embark on this new world and life with a lighter freer feeling I welcome whatever comes my way with open arms.  I also thank my friend for being such an inspiration of a hopeful future filled with hope and happiness in whatever form it comes.  Free from pain, free from labels and free from the protective shell you naturally build when life has toughened you up. 

So today I ask each of you to think about what might be weighing you down emotionally, mentally or physically and think of ways to free yourself from it.  Talk to someone, make changes or just give yourself permission to let it go.  That decision just might give you the release you need to finally heal and could be the first step to your happiness too.

LM