Who's That Girl?

Time – something we feel like we never have enough of yet on the other hand there can be too much of. We spend countless amount of time at work, doing household chores or even watching tv and scrolling through social media. We spend time with others – both family and friends, we spend time on our hobbies and things we love or even just rushing around trying to do our day to day things and being ruled by the almighty clock. Our lives are based on time too and how much we have none of us know the answer so we try to make the most of it and rightfully so. Time can also heal but boy can it hurt too.

I have been spending time working on myself, my mental health, my new routine, time with my daughter and plenty of things that matter so very much to me. Sometimes we need to really take a break to look at things with a more clear mind and time can give you the opportunity to do just that. They say time heals but what they don’t tell you is that time can also be a reminder of what is missing in your life and what others are not getting to experience. Time can bring changes or can give you the chance to personally change. Time is truly what you make of it.

On my recent family trip to celebrate my cousins wedding, I had plenty of moments where time flashed right before my very own eyes. Whether it be seeing my not so little cousin exchanging her wedding vows and beginning her life as a wife and bonus mom, despite the time that has passed I still see her as that little girl I used to photograph for school assignments way back in the day. I also had a taste of time moving quickly while seeing my very own little girl maturing in to this little young lady with such confidence and an incredible personality that continually blew me away with every blink I took. Time wasn’t standing still anymore even though my head and heart have been stuck for a little while now. Things are moving fast and furiously and I need to take it all in as much as I possibly can.

My life kind of froze after July 2021 and although I’m doing what I need to do and moving forward, emotionally and mentally I have still been stuck. I’m working hard, really hard through everything while being patient with myself because some things don’t happen as quickly as others but thankfully, we have time so it will happen at some point.

The clock is ticking again and we are approaching some significant dates and although it feels so long ago to some, for me it’s not and time hasn’t erased or healed enough of the sadness that comes with those reminders just yet. But I keep at it every day, one day at a time and I know at some point my head and heart which have been stuck will catch up to this fast paced life again too.

So if you are fortunate enough to have some extra time, use it wisely and carefully. Fill it with joyful moments and to work towards your goals. If you feel like you are overwhelmed make sure you set aside some time to ground yourself and to find the peace you may desperately be needing. And lastly, be sure to savour, be present and live in your moments because in the blink of an eye time will pass you by.

LM